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- Chapter Nineteen
There may be such a star in your life, it cannot be touched, it is out of reach, but you can always see it when you look up.
It is so bright and brilliant, as if it has a brilliance comparable to diamonds all over the world.
Many years later, Nanqiao finally understood what he wanted.
It turned out that she wanted to get that star.
I want to take it off, hide it, and never let others covet it from now on.
Yi Jiayan is that star.
After getting the cufflinks and going home, Nanqiao's mind kept echoing Shen Yuelan's words.
"Miss Nan, the most important thing to be a man is to know how much you weigh. Don't think that because of Yi Jiayan's pampering you for a while, you are really a sparrow flying on a branch. With this face, is it really possible to tie him down for a lifetime?"
"He treats you well now because he is high above the ground and lives a carefree life, so when he sees the injured wild cats and dogs by the roadside, his sympathy overflows, and he can't help but give you a hand. A man like him, what kind of woman he has No? When he sees more and finds that you are just a little wild cat wagging his tail, do you think he will continue to stay by your side and protect you when he is full?"
While she was happy that Yi Jiayan didn't have a girlfriend yet, she repeatedly thought of Shen Yuelan's words, her heart was like the evening tide, ups and downs.
In the end, she couldn't help calling Shen Qian, but learned that Shen Qian was watching Jin Yuan's performance in Yuandong.
"Why did you think of going to see Ah Jin?"
There was a lot of noise at the other end, Nanqiao took the phone away, and heard Shen Qian ask back: "You think everyone is like you, and you have been away for so many years, forget him completely, and you will still be the same when you meet again." Don't worry about him?"
Nanqiao was taken aback.
"Shen Qian"
"What are you talking about, come here quickly, you are the only one missing!" Shen Qian's voice suddenly became louder, still the same, always yelling, it sounds fierce, but there is no real threat.
Nanqiao breathed a sigh of relief, and his heart was relieved: "Okay, I'll come."
It was already ten o'clock in the evening, and it was rare for Nanqiao to go out so late. Before leaving, her mother asked repeatedly.
She only said: "Shen Qian and Ah Jin are having supper outside, and they asked me to go get together."
He didn't dare to reveal too much about Jin Yuan's occupation, after all, such things as playing rock and hanging out in bars have never been accepted by the elders.
When he arrived in Yuandong, Jin Yuan had stopped singing. Shen Qian and Fatty Dachun were sitting in the corner drinking together, Jin Yuan didn't know where he went.
Nanqiao walked over and asked, "Where's Ah Jin?"
"I drank too much, I'm throwing up outside." Shen Qian pointed to the side door.
"Aren't you going to look at him?" Nanqiao's tone was somewhat complaining.
Dachun chuckled: "I just expect you to come and watch him, what's the use of us watching him?"
The fat man followed suit: "That's right? It's not that you don't know Ah Jin's temper. No one has ever really been able to persuade him, except you."
The South Bridge did not move.
The fat man gave her a push: "Go, go, you really want him to fall outside before you go?"
Nanqiao paused, then walked out the side door.
Probably since the death of Jin Yuan's grandmother in the third year of junior high, Dachun and Fatty began to regard her as Jin Yuan's girlfriend. No matter how she explained, they would always joke about her happily. After finding that the explanation was useless, Nanqiao simply stopped explaining and let them say.
In the summer of that year, after Jin Yuan returned home from a performance one evening, he found that his grandmother was no longer breathing, and only the withered and cold body on the bed was left.
In fact, the old man has been ill for a long time, and the doctor also said that it happened in the past few years. Jin Yuan should have been mentally prepared long ago.
But what if you are fully prepared for the death of a loved one? Some wounds don't hurt if they don't hurt.
That night, Nanqiao was cooking at home when he heard Dachun and Fatty calling him outside: "Nanqiao, come out!"
The voice was very hasty, which frightened Nanqiao.
She quickly stretched her hand out of the rice washing water, wiped the veil at the door casually, and then ran out the door.
Outside the yard, the fat man was covered in sweat, and Dachun's face was also ugly.
"What's wrong?" She stood hesitantly at the door.
But I heard Dachun say in a hoarse voice: "Ah Jin, his grandma is gone"
Nanqiao supported the door frame, his heart sank, and he was speechless for a long time.
In the end she struggledp; After being beaten by him, Nanqiao didn't realize the wound on her arm. The blood flowed into a long line, which was crooked and shocking on her fair skin.
She clutched her wound and said in a low voice, "Ah Jin, Grandma, she wouldn't want you to look like this"
Jin Yuan didn't say a word.
She went to hold his hand: "Be sober. If you are like this at this time, who will see Grandma for the last time? You are Grandma's entire hope, and you are her pride and reliance. In front of her, you Do you really want her to see you look so childish?"
Jin Yuan raised his head blankly, finally there was a trace of emotion in his eyes.
In the dark, Nanqiao pushed away his holding grandmother's hand bit by bit, and he finally woke up from the dream, hugged Nanqiao, and cried bitterly.
That night, Nanqiao saw Jin Yuan cry for the first time, and it was also the last time.
He cried like a bewildered child, heartbroken and desperate.
She could only hug him and comfort him over and over again: "Ah Jin, don't cry, everything will be fine."
Many years later, she and Yi Jiayan watched an old French movie together. In that movie, the little girl also asked the cold-blooded killer in a daze: "Is life always this difficult, or is it only when you're young?" Was it so hard when you were a kid?"
The killer looked calmly into the little girl's eyes and said, "It's always been like this, always will be like this."
Nanqiao doesn't know what life is like, and whether it will always be so difficult, but at that moment, that night, she really hoped that God would give Jin Yuan a little favor and let him struggle out of such a difficult fate .
Give him a little hope.
Give him some love.
It's a pity that many years later, everyone seems to take it for granted that she is the one who should give him hope and love.
Nanqiao knew that the eyes behind her were following her steps, and she really wanted to tell them that she already had her own hope, her own love, and all she could give to Jin Yuan was friendship, nothing else. .
But she just walked out of the side door in a hurry, looked at the person beside the flower bed who was vomiting faintly, and sighed.
"Paper." She handed over the tissue in her hand.
Jin Yuan's body froze, without turning his head, "Stay away."
"Since you're afraid that I'll dislike you, and you know they won't care about you, why are you drinking so much?" Nanqiao asked.
"Then will you dislike it? Will you care about me?" Jin Yuan wiped his mouth with his sleeve, and when he looked back, he still smelled of alcohol.
Nanqiao shook his head: "I don't dislike you, and I won't ignore you. But you can manage it for a while, but you can't control it forever."
"Why can't you manage forever?" Jin Yuan took a step closer, suddenly a little aggressive, "Nanqiao, are you pretending to be stupid, or are you really stupid? Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I have been in love for so many years?" You?"
If he hadn't been drunk, he would never have said such straightforward and undisguised words.
Nanqiao seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.
It's good to say.
Having said that, there is no need to hide it.
She sent the tissue over and put it in his palm.
"Jin Yuan, I can hand you tissues for the rest of my life, come to see you every time you are drunk, and bandage you every time you get hurt." After a pause, she said softly, " But I can only do this, I can¡¯t wipe your mouth for you personally, I can¡¯t scrub and feed you anti-alcoholic medicine, and I can¡¯t take care of you all night.¡±
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"Those things are not what I want to do, and there is nothing I can do."
"Why don't you want to do it?" Jin Yuan looked at him, with the same deep and sad eyes as Hei Ye.
"Because I fell in love with someone else." For the first time in his life, Nanqiao said it.
Jin Yuan suddenly asked her back: "Yi Jiayan?"
"yes."
"Are you crazy?" Jin Yuan grabbed her hand, "He is your brother, he is your real brother on your household registration book, someone you can't and can't be together for the rest of your life! You fucking what crazy?"
Nanqiao let him pull, let him pinch his wrist and it hurts.
In the end, I just smiled wistfully: "You can just think that I am crazy. Anyway, I have been crazy for so many years, so I can't get better."
"Then what about me? Then what should I do?" Jin Yuan's voice was terribly hoarse, "I've been looking for you for so many years, I've loved you for so many years, what should I do?"
Looking at him, Nanqiao felt that all the weight of the night was on his heart.
"Ah Jin, I fell in love with a person, a person who I know that we can't be together and there will be no results, and I may even never return the same feelings to me in my life. I love so without reason and without hope, but you ask What should I do with you?"
""
"Just think of me as selfish, I don't even know what to do with myself, how can I know what to do with you?"
Nanqiao withdrew his hand and took two steps back.
Since we can't be together, then stay far away from you.
It is better to let you hurt for a while than to not know when the pain will last like me.
? If you like the best you in the world, please bookmark: The best you in the world is updated the fastest. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)Pressure on the heart.
"Ah Jin, I fell in love with a person, a person who I know that we can't be together and there will be no results, and I may even never return the same feelings to me in my life. I love so without reason and without hope, but you ask What should I do with you?"
""
"Just think of me as selfish, I don't even know what to do with myself, how can I know what to do with you?"
Nanqiao withdrew his hand and took two steps back.
Since we can't be together, then stay far away from you.
It is better to let you hurt for a while than to not know when the pain will last like me.
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